It's been a while since I've been on here. No, I've not dropped off the edge of the Earth, I have been away dreaming up and birthing a new way of being.
After a long and painful period of mourning the loss of both my mother and husband of 31 years, I am reinventing myself.
The grief and loss period has been very profound, especially with losing two beloved people in one go, and I have been working through a lot of feelings, emotions, and mental struggles.
I've never meditated as much in my life as in these last few months. But this has given me the inner calm and clarity that is needed to dream up a new way of being, a new life.
I have been clearing out a lot of my old life, including clearing out the house, selling off stuff that I will no longer need as a single person, and generally giving the whole place a spruce up and tidy.
It is amazing how liberating and freeing the simple act of throwing away, gifting, or selling things can be.
It is a physical manifestation of clearing out the clutter from your inner life. It is cathartic and also represents the inner workings of the mind. The clearer your outer conditions, the calmer the mind will be.
I have done a lot of soul searching to figure out what I want to do and where I want to go from here. The Universe has given me this once in a lifetime opportunity to start again.
Being on my own for the first time in my 52 years means that for the first time in my life, my life is a blank canvas. I can do what I want when I want and how I want - no compromises.
This sudden freedom has made me realise the things I really want to do in life. I have found my purpose for being on this planet.
I was already pursuing part of it with my books. By empowering women by helping them to share their stories in multi-author books, I have been following my inner light. I know I am here on this planet to help usher in the Golden Age.
I am here to help other women to realise their own individual freedom and to take up their rightful place in society. I am here to help women finally heal from the ancestral wounds that have been inflicted on us by the Burning Times and other atrocities.
But even though this is a deep inner passion of mine, I have felt that something is missing. And I have not been able to put my finger on exactly what this is. But this enforced period of severe introspection has finally uncovered the truth of my purpose on Mother Earth.
My purpose is to travel the world and by doing so become an example to other women to show them that being independent is a beautiful thing. So I have decided to hit the road come this summer in my trusty old Land Rover and with my beautiful dog Frunza.
Over the last months, I have planned and plotted and put things into motion and now my Land Rover is in the garage being repaired, serviced and maintained so that the old girl is ready for our adventures.
Come the summer, I will take off to beautiful places on my doorstep like Scotland, Ireland, and Wales. And I will be recording all of my happy shenannigans in my travel blog.
I will be looking for sponsors and I even have plans to approach TV with an idea for a series. I have huge plans and I am so totally excited to get going. This is my life's mission. Travelling and empowering women by showing them that its totally safe and fun to travel solo.
But my soul's mission doesn't stop at my professional dreams. For my own private pleasure, I have decided to continue my music, which for almost 30 years I always used to do together with my husband.
For the best part of 30 years, I have been a professional bass player and backing singer. I have gigged all over Europe and the UK, from places like pubs and clubs right through to the Millennium Dome, which now is the O2 Arena in London.
I have recorded in countless studio sessions, helped write lyrics, and been involved in music production and song arrangement.
But until now, I have never done anything on my own. But this is about to change. I am now learning the ukulele, because quite frankly soloing with just a bass guitar and vocals sucks somewhat.
And yesterday, I did a really, really exciting thing. I signed up for a songwriting course with the lovely Karyn Van Dam . She is going to help me get my songwriting skills up to speed.
This morning, for the first time since the passing of my mum and the leaving of my husband in January, I woke up full of beans with a clear vision and joy in my heart.
I have spent the best part of two hours lazing in bed, enjoying a cup of tea, and rummaging through eBay finding myself all the bits and pieces that I need to convert my laptop into a mobile recording studio.
And I have signed up to JamKazam, which is an amazing place where musicians can meet and play online in virtual studios in real time. This means that I will be able to jam out and even record with other artists from all around the world. Now how exciting and awesome is that!
I don't know many people who could get as excited at a USB interface and keyboard controller
I am so looking forward to starting on this old but also brand new musical adventure. Watch this space!
In my business, there is lots happening as well. I am in the process of dreaming up an exciting new offer for solo authors. I will be disclosing all the details with you on here in the coming week.
And, of course, applications remain open for both of my current multi-author books - Fearless Female Travellers and My Darling Mum.
The first book, Fearless Female Travellers, is a compilation of stories from women who travel solo and will be an inspirational read for anyone who has ever thought about trying solo travel. It is an amazing empowering book that will encourage women to step out on their own.
The second book, My Darling Mum, is a compilation of letters that grieving women have written to the mums in heaven. Have you ever thought that you would like to tell your mum one last thing or do you simply want to express your feelings of grief to her? You can in this book and by sharing your own grief story help your readers work through their own grief.
Both of these books will be launching later on in the year and I encourage you to apply now if you want to contribute to either one.
Simply shoot me an email.
It is the wonderful season of Spring, let's create magic together!
And I am so happy to say that the Inner Hippie is back.
I love you all!